…you see, at that time I considered myself a Christian
with unshakeable faith, but mind you I was no Job (I saw a tweet
recently about Job’s biblical encounter, and I cackled) .
closest brush with failure, in the past, was academically, and that
bugged me to my wits, but this current challenge was doing something to
me, it was breaking my faith, courage, and self esteem; most of which
had taken me a decent amount of years to build. These insecurities got
worse when I saw others winning, and I’m no hater.
There is more to this, my blog count, had fallen below the bar, my
Instagram (whose numbers people have come to associate success with)
numbers were reducing with each passing day, which meant my endorsements
were going downhill and it did.
This year started with so much optimism, and I was hopeful about the opportunities that the rest of the year would bring. Unfortunately, my woes began during the summer break. The endless search for summer intern opportunities to help with my tuition, which never happened, also I needed an on-campus job to help with rent and transportation and nothing fell through.
Around the same time, my footwear line in Nigeria was having sales and logistics crisis. There was no plan for this in my new year resolution, you see, at that time I considered myself a Christian with unshakeable faith, but mind you I was no Job (I saw a tweet recently about Job’s biblical encounter, and I cackled) .
For people who win or those who are at a fairer advantage to win, it is easy to become a motivational speaker and tell people how winning is easy if they set their minds to it. However, there are very few people who see the light at the end of the tunnel when failing. Statistics recently have shown suicide rates on the rise due to temptations becoming unbearable.
But I have won some, and there is something about winning that makes you win again. It’s almost like a jinx broken, and you would never want to go back to failing. My grades this year in graduate school went up, and I became a better writer (learning from my failures), I found out the areas I was lacking and began to make adjustments. I started another semester in grad school when it looked like I was going to be a dropout. Although my business may not have progressed as planned, there have been huge improvements with logistics. Yesterday, I got word that I may be a TA for a tech class in spring of 2019 and now I feel invincible again… to be continued
You can watch my YouTube video on where I got my outfit from Here